So here I am at 32 weeks. Things have been challenging lately but I also find myself being stronger. With contractions becoming more regular and stronger, everyday is a blessing that I can still be pregnant. I pray that we can make it to at least 35weeks. With a lot of laying in bed and an amazing husband that takes care of my house and kids, I think me and Olivia have a chance. I couldn't ask for better family and friends!!! I have found that I have to find joy in this journey even if it's been a unpleasant one.
Some of the things I find joy in:
* Being able to watch my kids play together without thinking I have to go finish the laundry or cook dinner
* Having my kids play on my bed while I can lay down and watch their imaginations take off
* Having my husband doing EVERYTHING!! (Really, how often do we get a chance like that?) From cooking to cleaning to running awful errands such as grocery shopping.
* Hearing my 4 year old daughter say "Mom lay down and put your feet up please."
* Being able to really be in tune with my baby
* Finding reassurance as I lay here and feel my baby kick me a thousand time a day (which are getting MUCH stronger, thank goodness)
* The money I've saved since I haven't been able to go shopping for so long
* Laying in my bed as I listen to my kids play in their rooms as I wonder what they are going to dressed up as next time they come out of their rooms.
* Listening to the kids playing and not having any worries about what toys they are getting out because my amazing husband will clean it up
So now that the end is actually in sight, I can almost say it hasn't been too bad! Okay maybe not but I can for sure say it could be worse. Day by day, week by week : )
